Pillow Talk

You know something's missing when you're sleeping on the other side of the bed.

I keep waiting for Ryz to arrive. So I can hear about his day. And see him. And just, carry on and truly enjoy myself.

I think I've got it bad.

Promise

That I will always be in awe of the things that I find wondrous.

Like snowfall.

And watching Ryz work.

And growing up. Growing to be different.

With him. On my own. With my family.

And to still be in awe. And to be able to look at the vision before me from the outside in.

And to be grateful. Ever so grateful. For right now.

And to breathe. To take the time to breathe, and to be aware of my breath.

Hearing the snowfall, and "Knockin' on Heaven's Door" by Antony and the Johnsons.

Soon I'll turn off this song. And it'll just be the snowfall and my breathing.

In awe of the very fact that all of this is for me. So loved, and so grateful.